Lolo Knows

These are the 5 daily reminders I have done in 2015 and will continue to remind myself in 2016. What a year I had, spiritually, emotionally, physically and professionally. 2015 began shakey with my mother's diagnoses to cancer and my son totaling our only car in which he should have been either hurt or dead, but wasn't. I could have seen that beginning as hell freezing over and it sure could have carried off and over and fucked up the rest of my year, but I knew better. This wasn't my first rodeo because I knew when there is rain and clouds, sunshine and rainbows are soon to follow. My prayer to God when I was in California back in February with that short time with the priest gave me the strength, courage and faith I needed to get past all the pain that I was enduring and to know that without a shadow of a doubt that I had the most amazing gift through a sign that was soon to follow. That was all I needed to feel in my heart and soul. Daily, I reminded myself of who I am a

     How do I know I am with my soulmate? It was such a delayed feeling. I've never been in love like this. I don't think any of us really know what it is until we have it.       I will say this now that I know after eight months of dating and now being engaged to this man and looking back at the first time he made his move to be with me. It felt like riding a bike. Even though I have not rode a bike in years, I am sure it will just come right back to me. It feels just like that, a familiar ride, a familiar feeling. You just know. I never felt uncomfortable at any one time on our first date, I didn't question, he just flowed with me like I knew him forever, and I just felt like myself. I wasn't my representative; I was just me naturally. Our souls were at one and recognized each other by it. It felt magnetic, soulful and like this man had been my best friend forever in which he absolutely is. I asked, I believed, and received the ultimate gift the universe wants to give